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I really don't like the after effects watching some sad music video/ movie/ show.

Reasons:
1. It makes me cry like siao.
2. It makes me rather angry. ( because i feel a lot for the person getting hurt . )
3. It makes me think a lot.
4. It makes me day dream.

I keep watching movies that makes me cry like crazy.
Lucky the flight back to sg was rather empty if not people will think that i'm crazy for crying!

" A person who truly loves you will be the one who'll say you're beautiful even when you're in the worst state. "

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My heart feels so heavy and i feel burdened.
So many changes have taken place i don't know how i'm going to absorb them.
The things i witnessed by myself just simply scares me to the wits.
The more i looked at it, the more i feel alone.
But if i don't absorb it, i will never be on par.

The thought of just losing out simply scares me and left me sleepless.
I don't even think i would ever progress anyway.
I had learnt to accept that i would remain where i am.
I will never move any higher but there's a high probability that i would fall. and fall deep.

Right now, i wish someone would help me and be with me to give me courage.

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[	Current Music	|	Is there somebody who still believes in love?	]

These few days, i've been almost bored to tears.
It's been so long that i forgot how it feels like to be bored.
Gosh, i really want to do something productive, hopefully like helping other in their studies.
But everyone seems to be busy and having fun.
Feel like giving tuition but i scared later they don't understand what i'm doing.

Baking is a no in my family cos my mum hates to see me using the oven.
She thinks it's troublesome.
I hope to fill my time by exercising, reading more books, having more time spent alone wandering around, meeting up with certain people to have fun and enjoy each other's company... probably watch gossip girls and watch my hsm 3 that i've been waiting to watch it after o's.

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Damn shitty, MCQ was damn difficult. Bet there'll be some people who would say, " MCQ was easy shit. "
Then, better get lost and don't come near me.
I think i'm going to fail MCQ cos the questions that everybody got correct, I GOT IT WRONG. wtf.
I'm expecting 10 mistakes and now it's 10 over. fail lor.

I DONT WANT TO TAKE ARTS COURSE IN JC!
I don't even think i can go for a JC now.
I don't even know why i went to think until so complicated.
I saw the word soil and i thought of fertilisers.
WHEN ACTUALLY IT WAS JUST NEUTRALISATION.
shit, shit, it's damn shitty.
 

So freaky! i dreamt about my o levels results today!
Gosh, i think next thing i would dream of is failing some subjects.

For chinese o's i dreamt that i failed my oral and it was true that my oral was badly done cos i only got a Merit.

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How many people actually lived and left in our lives? Sometimes, i hate the idea of moving on. Moving on means, new environment, new friends, new characters. Moving on also means that you might lose some of your friends. Everything changes. My mum always told me that if i want to be with my friends, i gotta work hard and make sure i get into the same school as them. Even if i did, will that ever happen? Nah, they're like way smarter than I am. O levels is like ending soon and all i had to do is to spam practices on MCQ and score 30 plus and above for both MCQ.

I'm too lazy to pend down my thoughts anymore.

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Today's a tiring day, because i didn't sleep well last night at all.
I was dreaming about SEQs and that really made me tired.

After ( i don't know how many days of control, ) I finally watch Pocahantas!
I couldn't resist watching it after peeking at the racoon and the humming bird.
Such lovable creatures.

I love the song in the show, " If i never knew you. "
It's so sweet that it melts my heart and makes me feel like dancing.
I don't care if i'm being melodrama now, cos i'm so freaking tired!

Now i'm kinda worried about my maths results.
I really have a bad feeling that i won't even score an A2.

And, now i'm also quite angry at that person who kept coughing like nobody's business during Amaths paper 2 yesterday.
He didn't even have the bloody decency to cover his mouth while coughing.

Wtf, i'm going to screw up O's.

Imagine.
" You are with a group of friends. They were having their fun and suddenly, your presence was invisible to them. Then, you decided to walk away so that you'll not look like a fool watching them having their fun. "
Do you know how it feels like?

All i could conclude was, since i have made that choice, i have to pay a heavy price.
God, i know it'll be worth it. I'm also glad that You're the only one who understands.
 

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I'm so damn tired.
Somehow i'm kinda sick of doing amaths papers cause the Crescent Girl's Prelim 2009 is SO DIFFICULT.
WTH. It just totally sucked my brain juice dry and biology too.

I am just so darn tired and i still have to study for causes of conflict and blah blah blah.
Don't even know what is the next topic.
One moment say diplomacy, the other moment say deterrence.
Wth wth wth. i'm going crazy!!!!!!!!

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It's time to talk, before i crumble during O levels.
 

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[	Current Music	|	Miss Independent	]

  

" We look like we just finished our prelims. " - Moyra.

Haha, nope, prelims is not over yet.
Going out with these girls is like one of the best moments in my secondary school life.
We're playing hard and working hard.




 

It feels good to be at the top, but when you're at the top, the feeling of being the lousiest still lingers.

It's so sickening to see those around me able to answer biology questions and most of their answers are correct.
Everytime i flip my paper, all i see is green ink everywhere.
When i see genetics and heredity questions, i just don't know how to write the answers out.
I don't know how i'm going to do my prelims which is just next week.
Tomorrow it's physics mock exam and i plan to fail that stupid paper.